This was in response to Walhydra's sharing her own favorite Zen precept: "After enlightenment, the laundry."
Walhydra hates spiritual truths which involve being responsible for your own life (even though she knows they are true).
Here's what Grumpy Granny writes:
I decided that I would open up to it, and make a conscious effort to understand that even when things are stressful, even when they are HORRIBLE out in the world...it is all PERFECT.Grrr!
There IS a reason for all this. We choose it.
We say it's because we're following "God's word" or whatever reason, but the bottom line is that we choose. We CHOOSE to hate and create chaos instead of peace. We CHOOSE to destroy rather than build.
Every single time, WE choose.
So, I am choosing. I am choosing to see the beauty and perfection in every single thing that surrounds me, from the mumbling doctor who drives me to distraction, to the beautiful quilt-block coloring that my grandson did for me for Christmas that hangs across from me as I type every day....
Walhydra says, "I don't wanna choose! I wanna blame someone else!"
Or blame the computer, or the customer service phone menu, or the gravity which makes the papers drop from her hands....
Basically, Walhydra is feeling very unhappy with her grouchy, achy old self lately. It seems as if she's having a serotonin deficiency relapse or something. All the "higher wisdom" she knows is worthless at present, because she just doesn't feel like following it!
"Boy! I can't wait till Imbolc gets here and everything that's been locked up in the dark gets released again...I hope...."
And so it is.